Everyone wants a piece of Remy Ma. Since returning home from her six-and-a-half-year bid she has wasted no time in hitting the studio with DJ Khaled, releasing a gritty remix and taking on interviews with a very real and transparent demeanor. In a narrative piece for The Fader’s upcoming issue, the hard-spitting lyricist continues her transparency while talking jail time and her mentor Big Pun without being edited.

“You go from a nice house in Jersey—“Oh, my Benz is parked here, my Jeep is parked there”—to a cell where you sit by yourself and a door you can’t walk out of when you want to. Those first days, I didn’t want to hear anything from anybody. I just wanted to be by myself, but people were like, “So how is Jay-Z? What is this person like? Is it true that that person is pregnant?” I wished I could just be regular and anonymous. And of course I was getting into it with people. If only you could see my list of disciplinary infractions from those days. People try you, like, “Oh word? She’s a rapper?” But I met so many great people, too, and got close to so many girls here.”

Get the full narrative straight out of Rem’s mouth at The Fader.