R. Kelly addresses the multiple accusations of sexual misconduct against him in a dizzying 19-minute song called “I Admit It” that dropped Monday morning. Kelly has been recently at the helm of new accusations causing his music to originally be removed from Spotify and Apple Music playlists and even an open call to action from the TimesUp organization to “mute” him and his music.

In the song, Kelly sings in a familiar defensive tone in the song, claiming he’s overcome insurmountable odds to achieve his success and won’t let anyone try and break down what he’s built. Accusing haters of trying to destroy his career and hangers-on of spending his money or benefiting from his largess. “I done made some mistakes,” he admits, but fiercely denies the strongest accusations against him. “How they gon’ say I don’t respect these women when all I’ve done is represent / Take my career and turn it upside down, ’cause you mad I’ve got some girlfriends,” he sings.

On his affinity for younger women

“I admit I f*ck with all the ladies, that’s both older and young ladies/ But tell me how they call it pedophile, because that sh*t is crazy.”

He describes his admitted transgressions in graphic terms: “Went and f*cked a n*gga’s b*tch/ I admit, I admit that I did/ I f*cked my girlfriend’s best friend/ Yeah I tapped that in the back of my Benz/ I admit I’m sorry for my sins.”

“You may have your opinions, entitled to your opinions/ But really am I supposed to go to jail or lose my career because of your opinion/ Yeah, go ahead and stone me, point your finger at me/ Turn the world against me, but only God can mute me,” he continues.

On his rumored “Sex Cult”

“Said I’m abusing these women, what the f*ck that’s some absurd sh*t/ They’re brainwashed, really?/ Kidnapped, really?/ Can’t eat, really?/ Real talk, that sh– sound silly.”

He even goes as far to claim the parents of Jocelyn Savage, who have accused the singer of kidnapping their daughter, of introducing her to him. “And if you really, really wanna know/ Her father dropped her off at my show/ And told this boy to put her on stage/ I admit that she was over age/ I admit that I was feelin’ her and I admit that she was feelin’ me/ I admit that that’s the sh*t that comes with/ being a celebrity/ I ain’t chasing these ladies/ These ladies are chasing me, yeah.”

Today is the day you’ve been waiting for. 🎶 I ADMIT 🎶

LISTEN: https://t.co/ncQiDOC6Gq pic.twitter.com/DR8Aijj62N

— R. Kelly (@rkelly) July 23, 2018

Kelly also acknowledges, as he has in the past, that he suffered sexual abuse an early age: “Now, I admit a family member touched me/ From a child to the age 14/ While I laid asleep, took my virginity.”

He also points a finger at Chicago journalist Jim DeRogatis, who first reported the existence of the sex tape at the center of the child-pornography case, ultimately dismissed, against Kelly in 2000, and has continued to report on the singer’s alleged misconduct in the years since. He accuses DeRogatis of building a career off of Kelly’s name.

“To Jim DeRogatis, whatever your name is (whatever your name is)/ You been tryna destroy me for 25 whole years/ Writin’ the same stories over and over against/ Off my name, you done went and made yourself a career/ But guess what? I pray for you and family, and all my other enemies/ I’m not gonna let y’all steal my joy, I’m just gonna keep on doing me.”

Kelly also obliquely references Aaliyah — his protege, whom he allegedly married in 1994 when she was underage — as well as the sex tape, in the form of recalling a conversation with a woman, and claims that he was framed. “She said ‘What about Aaliyah said?’/ Love/ She said ‘What about the tape?’/ I said hush/ I said my lawyer said ‘don’t say nothin”/ But I can tell you I’ve been set up.”

There is literally too much to write about (including Kelly claiming he is also broke due to selling away the rights to his music) so listen if you must. His professed motivation for issuing the song is in this lyric:

“I never thought it would come to this, to be the most disrespected artist/ So I had to write a song about this, ’cause they always take my words and twist it/
Believe me, its hard to admit all this, but I’m in my feelings about this sh–/ But I had to set the f*ckin’ record straight.”