While the 2018 Grammys provided some noteworthy moments and awarded deserving acts because of their musical contributions over the past year, there were also other instances that weren’t so great, like SZA not winning in any of her 5 categories.

For the star, who has went on to not only become a huge force on her TDE record label, but also within the music industry itself, SZA has moved on and even learned some lessons from the entire ordeal. Chatting with GQ Magazine, the Ctrl creator talked everything from her loss during music’s biggest night, to how she’s approaching her sophomore album.

People were pretty up in arms that you weren’t the biggest winner of the night. How did you feel coming out of that?

I felt a shift. Like, I came a really long-ass way. I didn’t imagine this album doing much anyway. I was so grateful to even have been honored by being nominated and having so many people fuck with my music. I feel like at some point you start to get sucked up into the accolades and you’re like, Oh, this is what this is about, and this is what quantifies my success or me as an artist or a human being.

Did you write any speeches?

I did not! I have a weird theory that had I written a speech, things would have went differently.

Are you serious?

Yeah, but I think things were supposed to go the way they went. I did have a weird inkling to write a speech several times, and usually my inklings are popping! I’m learning myself and learning how to listen to myself. I didn’t make my album with the Grammys in mind, and I’m definitely not gonna make my second one with the Grammys in mind. I’m just gonna make really good fucking music and just try to touch people.

A great outlook to have as awards are just a tiny piece in the grand scheme of the impact someone like SZA has. Furthermore, with such talent, she’s bound to land music’s best trophy in the years to come.